I think I have turned into a not so happy person. I don't remember when was the last time I felt really happy.
Maybe it is the feminism thingy. The "I have the right to.." which brings me away from being someone who gives everything all the time to someone who demands. I don't know.
I know I have my support system around me but truth is, they have their own expectations on me. Cos I am the mommy
Khadijah ra must be the happiest woman. a successful businesswoman, had her own business. married the Prophet and had kids. She must be busier than ever but I don't remember reading any narration about her not being happy. How did she cope with that? did she have her own servant? was the Prophet sharing her burden?I remember the story about Fatimah ra who came to the Prophet telling him about how tired she was managing her household affairs. This issue had been there forever. And I really do not know how they managed. Do the sirah tell us how these women managed? I need to read more.
But I have not even finish my assgmt readings. (see? still stressed and worried)
Maybe this is the time when my imaan is at the lowest.