Thursday, May 19, 2016

the birth story

It's my 36 day of pantang today and here is the birth story for my kids' reference in the future
(read: always listen to your mom ok giving birth was not easy)

On the 12th April we went to see Dr. Seri for my 38-week check up, anticipating some certainty

"Hi nadzirah, i was waiting for you since the day you informed me about the bleeding tapi takde dtg2 pun"
"tulah doc..i thought losing the mucus plug would mean I'd be experiencing labor right away but no..there were contractions here and there but nothing happened"
" tak nak  keluar lagi la tu!!"
then she scanned and checked my belly for baby's position
"he's actually getting down there..i would say that he is at 2/5 position. it could mean hours or few days away from labor..we don't know for sure.. so we'll see you next week for your 39-week check up..unless..I don't know what daddy is going to do to mommy tonight.." she chuckled
"ohh..i thought you are going to poke me or something to get the labor moving..just like you did during Suphie" I said rather innocently
"oh no..we don't do that kind of intervention dear..unless you request for it but then can do it yourself la!" she laughed while looking at hubs.
"and do lots of walking nadzirah"
"okay doc"

So we got back from PCMC realising that it is not within our power and that everything is within His will.. and since I need to do a lot of walking..we went to the new IKEA in Cheras, just 3 minutes away from PCMC. Had our meatball lunch there, did some shopping for house deco (read: fake plants) and went back home. I can gladly say that I did A LOT of walking ^-^ with contractions coming and dissapearing

And then come night time

After putting the kids to sleep, had a small chit chat with hubs and he went down to watch football
and then I was having a "heart to heart" session with Allah, telling Him that I'm worried about my coming Masters programme and going to QA and the timeline if I'm going to deliver the baby at a later date..I also prayed to Him that He would show me some clear signs..and few minutes later hubs came and slept next to me..and next thing I know I was feeling mild contraction and kind of leaking sensation..but I brushed that feeling away thinking that it is another false alarm..still, the optimistic side of me started reciting ya Fattah continuously..until..

My amniotic water..erm..spurt.
It was a  forceful, unstoppable stream.
*thank you Allah

"By, my water broke!!"
"my water bag broke!what time is it now?"
"can you check the mattress?banyak keluar ni.."
and he turned on the light and yupp..the bed is drenched with my water"
and the water kept on spurting out

I changed my attire while hubs took a bath and got ready to send the kids to my mom's place in Putrajaya
Got out from house around 1am, called PCMC informing my condition, arrived at my mom's place at 1.15am, dropped the kids and hubs sped to PCMC
Arrived PCMC at 1.40am
Wheeled to labour room, contractions were 10 minutes apart, nurse did VE informing that I'm 3 to 4 cm dilated
She anticipated that with current progress I'll be giving birth around 7 am
She also asked questions on mom and dad's medical history (diabetic, hypertension) and what kind of pain relief I would choose. I knew I didn't want epidural so I chose the gas

Why not the epidural? because the pain of the epidural process.
Refer to Suphie birth story in Dec 2013

Then nurse asked me and hubs to get some rest/sleep (which of course I didn't get)
Had the zikir munajat played on my phone with 3 in 1 nestum and jus kurma in between
This time around I told hubs that I don't want to see the numbers on the CTG machine (it tells you how strong the contraction is) because be it high or low I wanted to be in total control

Warm shower at 5 am - checked.

VE at 6.40 am - 5cm dilated
Contractions were getting stronger and everytime it came I did my own breathing technique and I didn't know why my mind and body kept telling me that the contractions are bearable. Allah is Great

Next VE at 9 am -7-8cm dilated
The nurse kept asking whether I feel like going to the toilet
This time I didn't get the enema too as I was already progressing at that rate and need to be bound to the hospital bed

10 am: felt the urge to push (note:it felt like waves of current from lower abdomen) and the nurse said I can push
After 3 pushes I was already feeling man this is real pain. The pain is totally out of this world. It feels like someone tearing your whole body apart.

10.20 am: Doc Seri came in and she was asking me how was I and everything in her bubbly way but I just couldn't answer. Sorry Doc!

Then I heard her asking the nurse what pain relief I'm on to which the nurse said nothing. She looked amazed and said "wow, that's really good Nadzirah" (made me feel good for 5 seconds)

Doc ready in her position to receive the baby and they kept cheering me to push until 1 point I actually said "Sakit doc.." and "By..sakit.."
I started to cry. Felt like leaving the baby there. Couldn't push any longer. I grabbed hub's hand throughout the minute. I know I'm hurting him but it's not even close to what I'm suffering down there. I think he teared too though I'm not sure whether it's because seeing me in pain or because I'm hurting him too much

"Come on mommy can do it.."
The only thing that came out from my mouth were Allahuakbar..Subhanallah..I pushed with the remaining energy left..

10.29 am: my baby finally out

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